saw Project Hail Mary today (CONTAINS SPOILERS!!!)

Mar 28th, 2026

i've been really really really excited to see the movie Project Hail Mary since it came out, and i already had one failed attempt at going to see it (nearly fell asleep in public and then fell asleep in the uber home) but i finally saw it today!!! almost had another failed attempt because my uber broke down on the way there and i had to call another one to pick me up from the side of the road (both of them were so nice about it and i hope the first guy got his car fixed)

technically, i've spent money on four tickets for this movie and only got a refund for one of them (accidentally bought the wrong day the first attempt and didn't realize until the movie had already started, got a refund the day i couldn't stay awake in public, missed the movie i was originally scheduled for because of the uber breaking down, and then finally going to a showing an hour later than planned)

the original plan for today was to buy the book after the movie because the theater is right next to a bookstore, but i once again got hit with a wave of exhaustion and nearly fell asleep while waiting for the uber, so i guess i'll have to buy it off amazon or something

the movie was good! felt a little long at times, but i think that was a combo of how i was sitting (i get anxious if my feet touch the ground while watching movies in the theater because The Monsters Are Going To Get Me if i leave my feet on the floor, so i have to contort myself into uncomfortable positions in the small movie theater seats) and the fact i needed to pee halfway through despite going to the bathroom just before it started

i really liked Ryland Grace and the fact that he was clearly very lonely and othered by his peers until he met Rocky. my heart broke for him when it was revealed they betrayed his trust to put him on the Hail Mary, like i'd be terrified too!! and when he got that memory back, he just kind defeatedly rested on the floor and processed it… it was so good. and he tried to put on a brave front so hard only to cry when Rocky insisted on giving him fuel to go home!!! Ryland Grace is SO brave and i love him for that. he just loves life and teaching and existing, and people make him feel bad about it ("you don't even have a dog" as if he's more expendable because he's alone, ugh i was so mad for him at that line) and write him off as someone who should be sacrificed because he's not like them. someone on tumblr related it to aroace-ness and i can DEFINITELY see it

and the fact he gives up his chance to go home to save Rocky (and by extension all of Rocky's people because if Rocky died the tau-moebas would never make it to Erid) is SO incredibly brave and selfless. and then he finds a home there!!! they treat him well by recreating parts of earth for him in the space where he lives and make sure to visit him so he's not alone and he even ends up teaching them, something he so clearly was passionate about on earth that he gets to have in his new home

i also love the detail that he and Rocky are eventually able to speak to each other without the technology they used on the Hail Mary!!

not to mention Rocky himself is equally as brave and selfless as Grace. he continued his mission when he was also the last of his ship, befriended a whole other life form and trusted Grace SO much to help, contributed just as much to their saving their worlds, and was willing to sacrifice himself to keep Grace alive. their friendship is so so so great and i love them both

other life updates besides seeing the movie are a bit minimal. i signed up for a fandom event in the All For The Game fandom, called a Big Bang, which means i'll be writing a fic (for this event it has to be a minimum of 10,000 words) and an artist will make accompanying art for it! i haven't started yet because executive dysfunction, so wish me luck. i still need to finish backlogging my fandom posts on here too. i commissioned rya for art of my ocs! and idk if i mentioned but earlier in the month i also commissioned aishime for more aftg art, specifically for one of my fics that i haven't finished yet. not sure if i'll ever end up posting the fic, but i'm still excited for the art :)

i need to read more, though. it's fallen by the wayside and i'm frustrated about it. i want to get back to being a voracious reader like i was when i was younger