my dog died yesterday

Mar 24th, 2026

reyna died yesterday. she was supposed to get put down later in the week, but she was sick all morning and had blood in her stool, so mom made the decision to move it up because she didnt want her to suffer any longer

i dont live in illinois anymore so i wasnt there for it. both a blessing and a curse because i didnt have to be in the room again like i was for reggie, because i dont think id be able to handle that again, but also i wasnt able to be there to say goodbye

i havent properly cried yet and idk when itll hit me

anisha and i talked for like an hour and a half at about 2 in the morning because she reached out when she saw moms post and was awake taking care of her son, so that was nice. i ended the call to sleep and then couldnt fall asleep so ive been awake all night

ive been trying to distract myself while awake but i really just want to sleep. but at the same time, i dont want to sleep during the day

i feel like i didnt tell reyna i love her enough. i miss her already