can't sleep :(

Mar 22nd, 2026

it's currently 7:16am and i haven't slept all night

i had a lot of energy all night and even now i don't think i'll be able to calm my brain and body down to sleep

i went through more of my stuff, and now all i need to do is move the stuff i'm keeping into my new room, sort through the stuff i'm getting rid of, and pack up the stuff i plan to donate vs the stuff i plan to give away through facebook. i might not do the facebook route and just donate it all so i can get rid of it all at once

i'm getting rid of a LOT of stuff this time. i'm currently using the closet to store the stuff i plan to get rid of (since i already moved the stuff in my closet that i'm keeping to the new room) and it pretty much takes up the whole closet. i also have stuff on the top of the dresser

and i still own a lot of stuff. there's a reason i go through and donate stuff every so often. i accumulate SO much shit and it happens over and over again no matter what i do

honestly i'm probably just barely avoiding being a hoarder. i need to stop buying things. people need to stop gifting me things. the gifts are the worst part, because no one ever listens when i say i don't need or want anything and they give me more shit i don't have space for. and then i have to pretend i'm grateful for the gift as if my entire internal monologue isn't just "great, now i have to find a place to put this because i'll feel like a shithead if i get rid of it. i want to get rid of it" for most gifts i get these days. just stop gifting me things unless i ask for them??? it's not that complicated, i don't understand why no one ever gets this. why. why.

i really need to sleep aeugh